Hello beautiful souls…
I hear birds chirping out the window.
I smell coffee coming from the kitchen from this morning.
I feel a gentle warm breeze through the air and I sit here to write my first ever email to you.
I have just returned to Earth after holding our first Portugal Retreat with the most wonderful souls I could ever have imagined (I hope some of you are reading this).
My heart feels full.
Expanded.
I'm grateful beyond words.
And in absolute awe of each individual who ventured into their own depths, on their own journeys, seeking wholeheartedly for what their souls desired most.
What a whirlwind of a journey it was.
Of deep connection,
vulnerability,
openness,
an outpouring of genuine LOVE.
I will always be fascinated by how beautifully bizarre it is for a group of souls who have never met before, from all walks of life, each with their own unique blueprint & stories to come together in unison.
And words will never even begin to touch on what happened during the week. Thats the beauty & rarity of it.
And because of all of that, I can’t help but feel a twinge of sadness that its over.
That all the plans & preparations, sharings & conversations, laughter & tears, family meals & outings, everything is over…to now be sitting here alone.
I do love my own company & silence is now a great friend of mine but loneliness is a funny thing.
It got me thinking about how the path & the journey to Self-discovery can often feel lonely in a world that doesn’t make sense, full of people that no longer make sense.
I remember that feeling all too well at the beginning of my first big awakening when my Heart just craved for depth, when I no longer had time for surface-level and when nothing no longer made sense. When all I knew I needed to do was to get rid of everything that no longer served me, to begin peeling back all of those suffocating layers, to start afresh and hit the open road.
That period of loneliness was what propelled me forward into a completely new direction that I never could have imagined, because it was way beyond my then current understanding of what I even knew possible.
Loneliness is often shunned upon. An undesired dusty word that nobody wants lurking in their home. But wow, such an incredible medicine if we allow it be. I really do believe that loneliness can be the source of creation, a place where we can allow ourselves to quieten out the noise and begin to listen to those little whispers deep within.
So now I sit here with this sense of loneliness, but with a smile. Because loneliness reminds me that I know fullness. That I have the capacity to feel such an abundance of love & connection. And it reassures me that it's only just the beginning.
Its always always the beginning.
And its never too late to start.
Exactly where we are.
Retreats are such a special phenomena with its individual essence based on that exact timing, place, and the souls that choose to join. Never ever will there be two that are the same.
Im just so so grateful for the memories, the little moments and the opportunity to hold this space. I really don't take my role as a teacher and a space-holder lightly, I bring my whole Heart & Soul into it.
I hope you can feel it.
Until next time…
Jordan
