Hello beautiful!
I hope that your New Year has begun in beauty and that you are enjoying the ebb and flow of life…
Here we are poised for another turn of the wheel, with Imbolc, the ritual threshold of Spring almost upon us on the 1st February.
After over 20 years living in sunnier climes around the world, when I first returned to the UK I struggled with the dark, cold nights of winter. It was only when I tuned into the cycles of nature, that life took on a different rhythm, and a more seamless sense of ease and flow opened up.
That said, for the past few decades I have spent Christmas in Spain with my Mum, a little jarring on the system after spending 11 months tuning into England’s dulcet rhythms. I used to live in Spain and it still holds a sweet place in my heart, so the joy of planting bare feet on Spanish soil and tuning into the energy of the land always lifts my spirit. Yet this dissonant sensation of the dark nights of England and its seasonal tempo make for stark contrast with the vibrant light of Andalucia, and have provoked some honest contemplation for my own relationship with this seeming light “duality”.
Everything that has been playing out over the last couple of years has sparked strong emotion in us all and how we find our balance with what is happening. For me, I have found myself walking a tightrope between light and shadow, loving life and skipping barefoot in nature with flowers in my hair channelling Pollyanna (not literally but you get my drift), combined with a deep grumbling and cynicism bubbling to the surface bringing with it its burly brothers, frustration and irritability. My back issues have also been protesting and have led me to ponder upon my own inflexibility.
What I have come to realise is that I find it easier to embrace the positive; the light filled aspects of life are easy to welcome but somewhere along the way, I seem to have forgotten what I came down here for. Forgotten what it means to EXPERIENCE life in all of its cadences. It is so easy to focus on positivity as a mantra but in the same way that a battery won’t work without a positive and negative, life is only complete with both. So often lightworkers talk about raising the frequency, yes of course, but how often do we discuss integrating the darkness…
I have been “luchando” (struggling) against, rather than assimilating the so called “negative”. The dense and subtler energies are all part of the same, just different ends of the spectrum. We have to learn how to enjoy all of the tones, to understand and accept life in all of its ugliness and beauty, in all of the millions of forms it takes, and not be triggered by the denser frequencies.
I have been doing a deep dive into tangible practices of how I can bring more 'ease and flow' into my life and release rigidity before frustration and irritability take over. I also appreciate the importance of maintaining my energy field, (not getting carried away by emotion, or giving too much) but holding my equanimity, and bringing joy to life (this we owe to life to be in balance for all that we receive). It is none of our jobs to change anyone, but we can impact a change by how we choose to honour the light and the dark (in whatever form it takes); by living more consciously in the now, we will change our future…
So as I write from the plane, in this liminal space between borders, I am looking forward to returning to the darker days and walking barefoot on England’s green and pleasant lands however cold they are. I will be embracing this time staying inward, gathering and focussing my energy, and clarifying my intentions before launching fiery arrows from my soul as the longer lighter days of Spring start to yawn and stretch and find their own rhythm…
May this missive bring you a ray of sunshine, and a gentle reminder that by taking a more distanced perspective from our lives, we can take comfort that all is as it should be, and we are right where we need to be.
May we find the ways to echo the rythms of nature, awake from our own dormancy and embrace all of the weathers of life…
With much love,
Nx
