Author's Note:
Mornin'! It's been a minute, huh? Let's catch up real quick: I'm already 30, but not necessarily thriving. I have been doing some serious self-reflecting, trying to come to terms with what I really want in life. I thought I already had that answer but with everything in my life in total chaos there's no planning past the month ahead. Here's what I've come to terms with:
1. I want kids, like asap.
2. This blog is a hobby. If God wants it to be something more, He will put that on my heart.
3. Whatever my career ends up being, it will be something that fully enables me to glorify God on all counts. This spiritual battle our nation is facing is not over and I am ready to fight in any way.
4. Aside from my relationship with Jesus, my relationship with my husband is the second most important thing in my life and I need to start being the wife I'm supposed to be.
5. Going with your feelings, your gut, your emotions - it's all a farce. Emotions are a beautiful thing but they are fleeting and deceiving. At 30, I can tell you they have never taken me to a good place. EVER.
6. I need to seek the Lord in every decision. From what I eat to what I do on a daily basis to how I spend money - the Lord will direct me accordingly and there's nothing more comforting than that.
7. I need to speak less and listen more.
8. Communication and encouragement are, what I believe, my spiritual gifts. I need to use them and stop allowing the devil to instill doubt that I am not good enough, experienced enough, or knowledgeable enough to use them - especially on this platform.
9. I just need to relax.
On an entirely different note, I can't believe September has pretty much come and gone. Fall decor has taken over Home Goods. Pumpkins are all over the office at work. Trader Joe's has become pumpkin-spice heaven. It's crazy. I need everything to slow down but I am so in love and stoked at the same time for the holiday season.
My Labor Day was pretty productive. I was able to take some time for myself - a luxury these days - and spent it at our local coffee shop. I read my Bible (going through John right now), got some writing done, read, and even sketched a little. Then me and Hector walked to our downtown area, got some more coffee, had some onion rings, and walked back in time to make dinner and put away laundry. Married life isn't too bad.
Other than that life has been pretty hectic, per usual, but I am pushing through. Paul tells us in Romans that tribulation brings patience; with patience comes experience (or character, for you ESVer's); with experience comes hope and our hope comes from the Lord (Romans 5:3-5 KJV). My faith, trust, and expectations rests solely in the Him.
