Feb. 20-25
Funny, I set a goal to watch the sunset every Monday as a way to end the week and mentally reset for Tuesday. That hasn’t happened ALL MONTH.
I wanted to train myself to think of Tuesday as the start of my week, which I know is a bit unorthodox, but it fits my work schedule.
In theory this would be a great structure for me, because I have a job that mainly requires my attention on Sundays and Mondays, so Tuesday is the day I’m able to start working on my own projects (and I like to feel like I’m hitting the ground running each week with my own stuff). But it’s been surprisingly difficult to shift away from a Saturday/Sunday end-of-week mentality when everyone else is living that structure.
I often like to think that I could live my own highly disciplined structure, but little things like this show me just how far away from my goals I actually am.
What I would only give to make discipline easier.
We live in a results-oriented world. And I haven’t ever seen solid results from my personal journey as an artist. I’ve tried starting YouTube channels 3-4 times, I’ve tried starting blogs 2-3 times, I’ve built websites, I’ve recorded songs, I’ve been kinda all over the place.
And yet I still don’t want to throw in the towel. Am I crazy?
I don’t think I’m crazy, I just think I’ve taken a long route to success (the only route to success for most of us).
I’m ready to take some solid steps forward, rather than making my long route a never ending one.
I keep grasping for new tactics and strategies and software that will make me feel more successful, but ultimately make my journey more dynamic and complicated.
That’s the problem, I think that what I really need is to simplify.
I’m just one person. It’s hard enough to keep track of my day, not to mention trying to keep track of my dreams.
So here’s my new plan: rather than trying to consistently lay groundwork for 3 projects at a time, I’m going to cut ties with every major project I have in mind and only focus on one: YouTube.
It’s so simple it almost hurts me.
When people ask, “what do you do?” I’m going to say “I’m a YouTuber.”
Making this decision is a blow to my pride and my ego. The first thing I want to do is explain all the stuff I DID get right in the last decade, and all the progress I made in 5 directions😪. That’s REAL! But I still have to change the way that I’m working as I go forward.
This isn’t a hobby.
I don’t want to be a starving artist.
I’m not so brilliant that I can produce works in 2-10 hours that will connect with and potentially stick with people. I need to be giving my “focus” more time.
Cam
