You don’t really forget a best friend, do you? Doesn’t matter how long you considered them a best friend. Doesn’t matter how long it’s been since they’ve been your best friend. It could’ve been a couple of weeks, a few months, a bunch of years, or even decades. No matter how much time passes by, their name is still ever so present on my mind. There are days when I wish I didn’t think of them and there are others that I’m so glad I feel the warmth and joy of what that friendship was.
At one point, there was this person who knew everything about me and I knew everything about them. That closeness is nearly impossible to replicate. It is because I can always find a new best friend but they will never know who I was when I existed in that time and place. I can tell stories and anecdotes. I can share pictures and videos but, no one can understand what it was like existing like that. Existing with that person, that best friend
I miss my old best friends. I miss the laughs we shared and the memories we carried together. There are even moments I long for another quick chat, late-night conversation, or that deep belly laugh that makes you have to pee. Even though there were moments between us that were ugly, scary, upsetting, and infuriating that triggered me immensely - I still think of you fondly.
I can’t forget you because I can’t forget all those moments we shared, beautiful and ugly. We once walked life together and now we walk it separately. Maybe that’s for the best but, I sometimes wish we could walk together at least one more time. Maybe we will. Maybe we won’t. I don’t know. What I do know is that I’ll always think about you in some way or another and I’m sure you’ll think about me. After all, we will always be a part of each other's life story.
Thinking of you fondly,
Your former best friend
