Feeling Rough on this
Scorpio New Moon
Hello to all the beautiful new people who have signed up for this newsletter. I know quite a few of you were introduced to me from my IG Live with Esoteric Esa last month (if you missed it you can watch it here), and I welcome you to this space I've cultivated over the last few years. The 13th Realm Newsletter was launched last month with the intention of holding myself accountable for sending out at least 1 email a month (I am a Sagittarius Sun, consistency isn't my strong suit). And it's a bit of a gift from me to share some things that may feel helpful or interesting to you.
I'd be lying to you deeply if I said that I was feeling great today. To say my heart is heavy is a gross understatement of how I've been feeling lately. I know that this is the case for many people in the world today. I feel dizzy by what can be described as living in a constant state of traveling through wormholes. Being sucked in by a chaotic vortex that is constantly transporting me to and through endless realities. Many of which are so in contrast with each other. I feel like I hardly have time to process one before I get taken to the next. Like being in a constant state of whiplash. It's taking a toll on a lot of us.
I grew up believing that my sensitivity (I cried a lot as a kid lol) was a bad thing. That I was weak. That I was defective in some way. As I write this I can feel the urge to cry again, and I am doing my best to hold that back as I don't want to freak out the other people who are sitting next to me in this cafe. I still am not fond of this trait, but I don't demonize it anymore. It's not a curse to feel so deeply. My ability to feel deeply is in response to acknowledging how much in our world needs to change, needs to go. Do I know how this will happen? Not at all. But I see it as a gift that I can see it at all.
For some more insight of my current state of being, you can take a look at the recent IG post I shared here.