Apologies for the late issue this month, but I wasn’t feeling inspired until my attention was brought to the above card a few times this last month in a local store. I read it, said to myself, yes those words resonate with me and continued about my business. As I thought I had let everything that I needed to go, go. However, my spiritual team had other ideas, amping up their game since I wasn’t paying attention and getting the message. A few days later, my toilet at home wasn’t flushing, it didn’t seem like a typical clog, but something was pushing that water back up. Now water represents emotions, and usually when there’s something like a clog, leak or flood in your home, that’s often a sign - “Pay Attention! There are emotions you need to release in order for you to move forward.” And releasing is so important because holding on, burying them, stuffing them down, denying them, doesn’t make them go away. Especially if they’re deep seated and accumulated over many, many years. Annoying as the toilet issue may be, I took note and tuned in to my team (after I tried to fix it myself and then called the repairman for the next day) on what this was telling me. I thought I had released, cried it all out ages ago, cut the cords, let the past go…but that night came tears from the tiniest trigger, which at first my logical brain was like “get a grip, that’s nothing to get upset over”, whereas my heart and intuition said “just cry, let it out, sometimes you can cry for no reason simply as a release”. When the repairman came to fix the toilet the next morning, miraculously! it was working perfectly. A little embarrassing, but then as a bonus, he lent me his power screwdriver to fix something I had been meaning to fix for awhile but didn’t have the right tools. So in the non-fixing of my toilet, my sofa was now stable on its legs and flow was moving in my home. I was then reminded of this card, sometimes in an effort to be strong, show a brave face, or not want to trouble anyone with our problems, we can swallow down our emotions, distract ourselves and move on. And then one night years later you start crying for a little thing and realize you’re actually crying over years of feeling an emotion that you never admitted to yourself. So the self-work continues. Also the realization that one problem can fix something else which you would think is not related at all.
My point in this long drawn out anecdote is that we need to be patient with ourselves with our own healing. We have decades of experiences and situations that made us who we are today, and we need, perhaps not the same amount of years, but time and diligence to let the past go. And sometimes, when you think ‘whew, I’m done!", Spirit kindly shows you the areas where you’re not done yet. It's all good.
This human experience is a lifelong learning process, let’s enjoy the ride and not take anything so personally!
