Ok, let me just start by saying wow! I am so glad to be here writing these words. I just recovered from probably the most intense sickness of my life. I was in bed for a week straight with what I'm pretty sure was h pylori. I was actually too sick to go to the doctor so I researched and self-diagnosed (not recommending anyone else do this! haha) and sent my partner to get me some antibiotics for what I concluded I was dealing with. That was 3 days after thinking my body could recover on it's own... but I just got way worse. Taking the medication shifted me into recovery and I'm all back to normal now. 7 days in bed with pain, high fever and mixed with chills gave me a lot to think about. Thankfully I had a nice big bed to rest in, a beautiful view, someone to help me and a sweet cat for company. I could barely walk! Such a wild experience with my body.
Many of you may know that I see sickness as a teacher. And without a doubt, this sickness came to me at the exact time I needed it to reveal and heal something for me on a deeper level. I see where I need to soften in life and where I need to step into my power even more.
I feel I'm transforming into a whole new version of myself! With so much love and gratitude for who I am and the person I have cultivated. I'm still in the process of recovering and this next month will be about creating this next evolution of myself.
I stayed in two different places this past month: Casa Tierra (Earth House) and Jardin de Sueños (Garden of Dreams) and the first place last month was Casa Sita (Tiny House). Each dwelling with it's own energy and teachings. Now after a month and a half of waiting, I finally arrived at the place I originally intended to stay, Roca Escondida (Hidden Rock).
I also experienced a 6.7 magnitude earthquake and the most intense little boat ride before my sickness!
This has been a time of initiation for sure into a new book for me, not even just a new chapter.
Life will often redirect us and we may feel deeply challenged. We may want to resist the change, push away the pain... but it is here for us. When we are open to the teachings available we can be transformed, often in the exact ways we have been asking for. I am deeply grateful for the redirections, the emotional and physical pain. And I'm ready for a break from that now! haha
My Short Term Plan
I'll be living in Guatemala until the end of June and then I'm planning to return after. I made the very hard decision to not return to my current office space. I have loved working there and supporting you all in person in the little realm I created there. But I've been working there since 2018 and with this time away I feel ready for a change. My intention is to find space that has a window or green space! There was also a rent increase that pushed me to make this decision. For people that feel comfortable with it, I will be doing sessions from my home or at nearby park in the summer when the weather is nice. I live close to where I work. I'm looking at being in Hamilton for the summer but I'm not sure which direction to take after that. There may be more travel in my future, I'm not sure. I have always been directed by the current of life so I'll have to see where the energy is flowing!
