Choosing joy and laughing despite circumstances

Hi everyone!

So I'm not sure if you have noticed our newsletters have been a little different lately. I have decided to take a more personal approach connecting with the thousands of you. I have received numerous requests asking about our family and our views with life in general, so I can tell its something that readers enjoy and get the most help from.

We are so use to googling what we need to find out , so use to going through the motions of life that we forget to touch someone, smile at someone and forget to remember that people give meaning to life after all.

So be sure to see more of these and let me know if there is any topic or question you would like me to share on.

A month ago right before our trip away our family suffered the loss of a miscarriage, something I have never really experienced and to be honest I never expected to go through such an intense grieving period.. I was basically a mess and struggled to get my emotions and mind right and just view life positively.

A friend of mine had a miscarriage a few weeks before I was pregnant and I remember that I felt such compassion for her and cried thinking about how hard that must be to go through. Her telling me felt like a few rain drops on my skin but when I went through it I was in the middle of the storm I saw the dark clouds, heard the thunder got soaking wet and felt the strong wind blow me over and over again!

It. was. hard.

Have you realized how much of our happiness is based on choice, at any given day in any given circumstance we can actively choose to see the good and find joy with a simple mindset shift..

I kept thinking what did I do to cause this and why did it happen to me? 

I was starting to blame myself and blame my body and despite having two very healthy pregnancies and births with zero complications I just couldn't wrap my head around it so came to the conclusion that it must have been ME.

Finding hope in a miscarriage

- One of the first things that brought me peace was remembering that our child was never ours to begin with, he/she (one day we will know) had always belonged to God, and always would.  We as parents are given a gift to care for God's children for a short period of eternity.  However "long" that may be for...

- I allowed myself to experience my emotions fully in whatever form they were, when I needed to cry I cried, I never held anything back because I know the importance of letting go of emotions as it can cause more harm if you hold onto them watch the documentary E-motion  here is my favorite channel FMTV where you can find it.

- I spoke about it and connected with woman and people who had been through the same, it helps to know that you aren't alone and you aren't overreacting or too sensitive or just to have someone to say that they went through that specific thing as well helped me feel better.

- I reminded myself that people who have never experienced it will say hurtful things to help with good intentions and I should'nt take it personally, like my sonographer did after telling me my baby passed " you will be fine just get it all out and try again you are still young"

- Most of all I had the support of my husband he prayed to me and supported me, planted me some sunflowers and reminded me that the world is not perfect and sometimes bad things happen to good people.. and my boys who I love so much looking at them helped me feel gratitude and realize that I have so much to look forward to and so much to live for TODAY! 

Hope is being able to see that there is light despite the darkness 

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