Currently still startled when I see my reflection...and I don't just mean my hair (although that one has been a tough transition, I won't lie)!
In the past 4 months I've taken a lot of intentional actions in pursuit of my goal to heal my gut dysbiosis (you can see some history here). As you can imagine, in that time I have learned a lot about my habits - and not all of them were helping me.
There have been a lot of things I didn't want to do but they were part of the process; new, HARD things that I wasn't accustomed to, like:
- Elimination protocols (gluten + dairy)
- Lifestyle stress reduction (less training + more rest)
- Dismantling the belief that my productivity = value
But my WHY is bigger than my excuses, and I keep going back to that.
*BELIEVING* I can achieve my goals even before I have evidentiary support, then building that proof with imperfect, messy, uncomfortable action each passing day.
I've been building that 'discomfort' muscle for a long time. Years ago it began with challenging months in a calorie deficit, pushing past former PRs in the gym and most recently settling into the slow and steady rewards of living at maintenance calories.
(You can listen to the Biceps After Babies Podcast where Amber Brueseke and I discuss the transformation I underwent being here for the past 3 years)
I get asked a lot how I handle the discomfort of things like weight gain, body changes and downshifting my life from a dizzying-yet-satisfying pace.
You may recall from a prior email that my word for 2021 is OUTLAST. I commit to outlast the temporary discomfort in the time it takes to complete the action contributing to my goal. I return to this commitment daily.
It's not easy to be still. To look in the mirror and not recognize myself without the same visual identity I had just 6 months ago. Even my thoughts are different.
But I love who I am becoming. What I am learning. How far I am reaching.
In the hard times when I need to dig deep and outlast, I remind myself of these things. I resurrect the MENTAL strength (once practiced for calorie deficit) that now aligns with my current goal, and apply it to the effort it takes to pick up a book at 1pm and read for an hour, rather than move.
While both require different physiological efforts, the mental struggle remains the challenge. Neither action is unworthy if it is aligned with the goal.
Remember this idea from James Clear: it doesn't matter how hard you row if you're rowing in the wrong direction.