My last week has been a challenge. I had a session with a naturopath who is from the UK, you send her photos of your face and she tells you what's wrong with your body from the markings, colour and texture of your face.  She then gives you a program to help you be healthier and happier - well that is the plan.

(See more about her and my session here in my Blog Post).

Like any detox, emotionally or physically, it has been yes, a challenge. Hump day is Day 5 and I'm now on Day 9, so thank goodness for that!

However, prior to Day 5 my world was falling apart but not really. It's funny when you stop eating things that stimulate you, you go through a kind of calm breakdown. It always amazes me how we let food become our escape, but from what? I was examining my feelings and reactions and there is a certain empty feeling that surrounds you but you can't quite understand what it is. Interestingly enough, that goes after Day 5, so it must be some pattern that shifts and breaks down and now I'm not attached to whether I eat or not, well definitely not as bad as Day 1!  I suffer from migraines and I had a big one about Day 3, so eating the right foods for me has another incentive, to 'feel' well.

Anyhoo, my point to sharing this, is that as I was doing my daily walk, I was thinking about how certain things that I wanted to happen, didn't.  I spent the first 20 minutes beating myself up about what I did wrong and what I could've done better and then I stopped and thought why is it when something goes wrong OR we don't get what we want... we always think we've done something wrong, we are to blame in some way?  

Well I certainly do, I blame myself.

Like a penny dropping in my fuzzy detoxing brain I felt such relief, I could feel me take back my power again and a spark of clarity sprung out and I had a skip in my walk for the last 20 minutes. I had the realisation that just because it didn't turn out how I wanted it to turn out, doesn't mean it went wrong.  Perhaps I wasn't meant to work with that client or work at that job or you weren't meant to go out with that guy or your child go to that school or buy that dress (cause they all sold out - ha) - all the thoughts that bully ourselves are so cruel and so unnecessary. By the way, after that epiphany, the rest of my day was a good day.

The being wrong thing is so funny, we hate being wrong, I know when my husband says I'm wrong, it's like I'm being attacked, it's weird and the question is why is it so difficult for most of us.  BUT I'm so quick to beat myself up over everything else...

Let's start with everything is meant to be how it is, I want you to feel what I experienced last week and know that everything you have done and am doing and will do, is because you feel it's right at the time. If it doesn't work out how you planned, maybe, just maybe it's not meant to.

Trust in your own decisions, don't second guess yourself and remember we don't always know the big picture. In fact no-one knows the big picture - that is the mystery (and sometimes perplexing) but magical part of this life!

Have a wonderful week!

Love and sparkle, Scarlett xo

PS Also thank you to Charlotte for her lovely response to last weeks newsletter and interesting experience all the way from Japan...(See it here)

My first album cover I've photographed! Stay tuned for the film Clip!